The constant sadness, confusion, emptiness and frustration inside of me..
I didn’t understand why I kept feeling this way. I felt like I am at the right place doing the right thing but, the emptiness didn’t go away. WHY?
I prayed, l listened, I followed, and yet something just felt off all the time. At times I felt like I’m reading the messages wrong or maybe God has something else in store for me but I couldn’t understand it because I felt like he lead me this way. He answered me through scripture. At some points things just happened and it felt right. The clients, the studio, the support from some families and friends. The obstacles and downfalls was maybe just the evil one’s plan to make me fail. At least that’s what I thought…
In my post “Broken Wings” I pretty much explained how down and out I felt because of something that happened recently. How I’ve been questioned being a “yoga teacher” as a woman of God. It was hurtful and I felt the people I thought should support me are against me. ( I was wrong) I do feel the approach should’ve been different. I decided to keep praying about it and to only hold on to God and no one else. Last week God sent a other woman of God my way. She asked for health and fitness advice and I felt so good because “yay! God is still on my side. Things are happening”. To my shock she said she don’t want to do ” yoga” because she is saved. My response was “me too and it is not for any other spiritual benefits” but she stood by what she believed is right. It made me think a lot and I prayed about it because I felt like there is something I do not know. I needed guidance from God only.
Oh how wonderful is Jesus our saviour! I did some research and prayed. The reason why I always felt like I’m doing something wrong is because of the holy ghost trying to stop me from doing ungodly things. To take on a path or journey that is not from God. I came across the story of a former yoga/reiki teacher truth behind yoga. I thank God for this woman of God sharing her testimony across the world.
It feels like a huge weight off my shoulders. I am feeling good because I want to be a obedient child of God. I want to put Jesus first in everything I do in my life. I plan to keep it that way.
The burning worldly desires almost destroyed me. I am feeling blessed and happy. I do have a regular client now to help losing weight and reach fitness goals. I am still going forward with my fitness journey and still have a lot in my mind.
If you are a child of God saved by the grace of Jesus I do hope this post and link I shared will touch you. And I pray that God will touch everyone reading it and to get a true understanding.
Let’s Stay Happy and Healthy